Fresh Pots.
It is very possible that, as Miss Ida Lundin pointed out, that you simply lack the talent to do magical work effectively. This can be hard for people to accept, because it is common thought that today anyone can do anything if they try hard enough, and that simply is not always true.
It's like singing, some people are born with a beautiful voice, and if they practice and apply themselves they can become virtuoso's. Others are born with a good but not spectacular voice, but with practice and hard work they can become very good. Others will never sing well. So it is with magic, some of us are born with a large gift, others can learn to o work for themselves, and a few have no talent for it at all.
Also...
fresh_pots wrote:Um, YEAH I went to a reader. As for the depression, you would be depressed if all this crap happened to you and you had the added stress to deal with. Medical help? Seriously? Unless doctors can reverse time I doubt that would help.
You're beginning to come off as rude to people trying to help you, I am sure you are not intending to so I mention this so that you may curtail this.
As for the stress and depression, despite what you seem to believe medical help can do a world of good, counseling is also of great aid to people in situations like yours.
I do hope you get the help you need, i will pray for you and your family.