I am sorry, but we cannot recommend magical solutions to medical problems.
I have had abortions myself. The "stigma" is only coming from haters. Haters are not going to rule our lives, so get past them now.
I am sure that there are people who will offer you financial or medical aid. Try calling a local abortion clinic and asking them if there is any person or service that can help you. There are national hotlines that can help. Depending on where you live and who you talk to, you may find help easily nearby or it may mean travelling to a place where the anti-woman forces have not driven all of the clinics under. KEEP TRYING.
For instance, in New York State, there is Fund Abortion Now at http://www.fundabortionnow.org/
They also have a very practical page on financial counselling here:http://www.fundabortionnow.org/get-help ... counseling
And they have a search engine that will help you find an abortion clinic near where you live. The search engine is here:http://www.fundabortionnow.org/get-help
Please, promise me that you will not use dangerous "home remedies." Get a doctor's care.
As i said, i have had abortions. My mother did as well. We were fine afterward and felt neither shame nor guilt. It is OKAY to terminate a pregnancy. You have had FIVE CHILDREN already and this time you are hooked up with a man who is abusive and an addict. If having an abortion is necessary in order that you can look after the five children you already have, then so it is and so it must be.
I hope you will place your prayer at the Crystal Silence League as well. http://crystalsilence.org