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by gittyupitty » Wed Mar 16, 2016 10:44 am
My life has been derailed by a back injury and I'm trying to get it back on track, before it's too late.
In contemplating the possible hidden reasons for the whole thing (lots of nonsensical bad stuff happened related to it, not totally uncommon for pain patients, but stuff like Dr's being clueless and blaming, prolonging the process to get surgery, etc.), it has occurred to me that, although I was inwardly happy and had a satisfying helping career (but stressful and I had to live in an area I disliked), I wasn't really happy, because my dream lifestyle (like: If everyone was ok and didn't need help, how would I want to live?) involved a lot of things that just weren't in the picture ... using talents I have, living where I choose, etc.
And, I wonder if maybe my inner self derailed the whole "old picture" to make room for me to create something new, that's not fear-based (like: "I have to make a living, so I have to live in a way I don't particularly enjoy").
There are too many moving parts to address each one without muddling it all up (especially in my very weak condition), so I'm wondering if there's spell work for getting the "big picture" on track? A Big Picture mojo, so to speak.
By the "big picture" I mean that I wish to do spell work to understand better, for myself:
where to live,
how to get money,
how to have real love that's friendship and soul based, not needy,
how to find a social circle of kindred spirits,
how to develop meaningful work (even if it's just gardening!),
how to achieve spiritual progress in a less suffering way ...
etc ... all in a big, single, approach.