My friend, let go of the nervousness and .. reach for that jar labelled 'Confidence' !! You have come this far, have faith that you will reach your goal (faith can move mountains after all!
). Spellwork will feed off the energy that you exhibit, and uncertainty, worry, nervousness, confusion, these are all doubt instigators which in turn will do no favours for the hard work that you have already put in.
I would wait it out for the next 9 days- maybe your lack of action is what will add that vital ingredient to kick-start or push along in the direction that you want. Universal energies need time to make manifest for you that which you desire. The cake is in the oven, so let it cook at a temperature that suits it; by turning up the heat are you likely to make it cook faster and be how you want it or burn it totally? ..
She has said that she will let you know when she is ready, right? So, trust that she means this. If that were me, I would be saying in a subtle way that I need space, please give me room and time to breathe, until I can be sure or be close to figuring out my feelings for you
. Give her the privilege of missing you a little, Shadowy..
I wouldnt be worried that if you back off that she will too - in fact, in relationships, when women do too much for a guy, 9 out of 10 chances are that he will start to lose interest. However, the less you do for him, the more he is interested. Weird, but that is how it goes.. I suspect, that in some way, us women, deep down react similarly when a guy shows too much interest. Its the pressure factor.