I initially posted about needing a job a couple of months ago and have been following Miss Aida's advice about praying to St. Dymphna, but financially, I can no longer hold off on finding employment. I need a job and am not having much luck finding one. I've never had to look for a job before, I always got lucky and they either fell into my lap when I needed one or I'd randomly contact an organization and voilà, I'd have a job. I'm starting to think maybe I should attract the job to me instead of the other way around.
I'm a horticulturist and have worked in several public gardens. I love the job itself and the other horticulturists I worked with, but people from other departments, like security and IT, were a great source of anxiety on almost a daily basis. In my original post I said
These days, I'm deeply effected by the people and things around me so it has to be the right kind of job in the right kind of environment with the right kind of people.
Jobs like these don't come around too often so I've been expanding my search to include other creative employment opportunities. I need more than just a job with a paycheck though, I need a job that will help ground me mentally and emotionally, sorry if that sounds bizarre, but I don't know how to word it otherwise, working with plants keeps me grounded... the job needs to be fulfilling on a level beyond salary and it has to be a job that wont contribute to my anxiety and hyper vigilance: my PTSD is rooted in the things that happened at two previous jobs and while I am still in therapy, I am terrified of anything like that ever happening again, and now certain types of people just really freak me out - how do I specify something like this in a petition? Aside from not seeing anything listed, my major obstacle is fear about the kind of people who may be adjacent to my work space and this isn't something I'm just going to get over anytime soon.
Basically, I'm hoping to attract/find a job centered around creativity and working with my hands like ornamental horticulture or something related to art (although I have no actual experience with art other than volunteer work) with an organization that will allow me to learn and grow, that it is fulfilling, and helps keep me grounded. It needs to be in a safe, healthy environment that I feel comfortable with - where I wont be regularly harassed or assaulted (this is soooo important) and it should provide long term income that covers all of my expenses.
Someone might give me a little money ("might" being the key word) and while it feels a little irresponsible to spend $20 of that on a candle at MISC, I'm considering it. I would potentially only be able to afford one candle, would it be "attraction" or "steady work" and what would the petition say in under 300 characters?
Sorry if this sounds like a high maintenance question, thank you for reading.