Hi my name is Britney I am 22 years old and I am Very new to lucky mojo.
My mother has been practising hoodoo for about 4 years now and I thought she was crazy, but I realised that she had a spiritual gift and I regret not learning some things from her. I am not living with her at the moment as I am away from home studying. Every now and then she gives me advice on candle magic and other things in regards to hoodoo. But I found this website through doing some research and I was wondering if you could help me
I’ll try and make it brief.
When I was 14 I was out of school for two months due to an eating disorder and I was also suffering from server candida. Towards the end of my GCSE year (10) I returned to school after my mother and grandmother helped me to recover. My classmates were very kind to me and welcomed me back into my classes. During this time I was still underweight and recovering.
There was this handsome boy who was always staring at me in my English and R.E and of Classes. Apparently, he was in my form class but I never noticed him as always kept to myself during secondary school.
To cut a long story short, he asked me out. This was towards the end of the school year. I told a white lie to him saying “I wasn’t allowed to date until I’m 18". Now part of this was true and the other part false. I did this because I didn’t want him to know the real me and at the age of 14/15 I was highly insecure along with my eating disorder and mental health issues. So in my mind, I thought I was doing him a favour that he'd be better off not dating me because I come with a lot of problems. But instead of explaining myself I told that white lie he and he became sad and he immediately stopped communicating with me.
Throughout year 11 to the end of sixth form we had several encounters but never talked to each other. I never bothered to express my feelings to him and neither did he. Whenever I was around him I felt super nervous. They only time we would communicate is when we were forceed to in class or in after school activities (as we live near to each other).
When I turned 18 I found out he was dating younger a girl in year 11. Of course I was crushed but I took at as he was no longer interested in me. For two years in sixth form I had to watch them smooch and cuddle and it angered me to the point I didn’t was to be in school anymore. Eventually I stayed in the ICT suite except if I had lessons. Sometimes he would come and sit next to me and stare at me hoping that I would talk to him but I was so mad he was with a younger girl and she was really pretty, so I refused to say anything. In my mind I wasn’t ignoring him but that’s how he interpreted it. Our communication became off whack because he decided to play games with me so I refused to show him my feelings...
In our media class, he attempted to talk to me. In year 13 He invited me to a film club activity which only occurred after school. He knew I was a film nerd and he was too. I couldn't ignore him as my other classmates were watching and I really missed talking to him. We attended the film club every Thursday after school. Towards the end of the school year we started talking again. But it was strictly about films or film related. He would stare into my eyes a lot and I would get super nervous I felt he was too. One afternoon we went home on the bus together and it was 30 ride home from the centre. As we sat next to each other I was extremely tempted to kiss him but I didn’t thinking about his girlfriend and my Karma. Thankfully I was sitting on the window side of the bus so I could turn my head in the heat of temptation. I was extremely restless but once again I kept my feelings inside and didn’t tell him that I still liked him. He asked if I was going to the sixth form prom and I replied "no". We sat in silence on the rest of the ride home and he walked me to my flat door. I hugged him and he went home. Later on I found out the he and his girlfriend were not officially together when He and I were attending the film club.
Because we were not communicating properly our relationship became a mess I ended up hurt and he was angry with me for ignoring him most of time.
Reflecting back my time in sixth form and secondary school I was really bad at reading my intuition quite often I would ignore my instincts thinking it was my mind playing games on me. Eventually, we stopped talking to each other and went onto University. I would look at his Facebook a lot and I saw that he was having a great time at Uni while I was at home still reflecting on our failed relationship.
The reason why I come here for your help is because I want to start talking to him again. I have been having dreams a about him since last year and it's quite often. And before I wanted to approach candle magic I did message him directly on Facebook some time ago but he ignored me. So I assumed he still hated me or he was angry with me.
My mother showed how to use a pendulum. I started using it last year to ask questions and him and our past. Soon after I some dreams about him quite vivid ones of him crying inform of me and other weird dreams. Through pendulum dowsing I found out some things I didn’t like and did like. I also tried using a picture I him of time to talk to his subconscious and higher conscious using my pendulum. I would also try and send him mental messages and think it was working as he would post things to do with relationships and commutation on his FB. As an indirect towards me. I’m not sure whether to trust the pendulum’s answers but I asked the same questions over and over again and got the same results up until today. It turns out he still has feelings for me but he is too proud to say it. And he is utterly convinced that I don’t like him because of our past and me giving him the silent treatment. I really want to make things right between us because I feel he is the right guy for me.
I recently purchase a male pink candle but I am waiting for the female figure to be shipped to me as it was out of stock in my UK store. Do I use reconciliation oil? I read that if you’re not talking to the person anoint a candle with reconciliation oil it may not work. Do I use a love oil on a red or pink candle? I just want us to start talking again even if we don't end up dating I really miss him please help me guys
Many Thanks and apologies for the ramble
