I have been in a relationship for just over two years to the man of my dreams. I love him deeply, and know that he loves me too. We have discussed marriage for the past 18 months and he even bought a ring a year ago. I was patient the first six months he had the ring, but for the last six months I have been down right evil with my arguements and nagging. He still hasn't proposed yet, although after our last argument I have found out it is happening in the next few weeks.
I do feel bad for the arguements and nagging, and I know I said terribly cruel things and threatened to leave many times. Never once did he say a harsh word to me during the many arguements, he just insisted I be patient. I am repentant, and have told him so and take action to show it. We argued so much during this time that the relationship has changed (my fault, I know, I flagellate myself enough over it as it is). I have told him that he has the option to leave me if he wants after all that I have done, but he says he wants to stay.
If he wanted to leave, I would let him do so freely. However since he said he wants to stay, I would like to have some vigil candles blessed and burnt to help the relationship.
I want our relationship to go back to being beautiful, blissful and harmonious. I want our relationship to have such a strong foundation that it lasts for eternity (this is what I believe marriage to be).I am doing all I can on the physical plane to ensure this, now I need the spiritual plane to line up too.
Ironically enough, after all our arguements and this final assertion that he is going to propose soon, I have realised I don't care if he never marries me, just so long as he LOVES me for eternity. Maybe that was my lesson to be learned from this. If and when he does propose, I want it to be for the right reasons, not because I was a selfish nasty manipulator (admission is the first step to recovery).
I was thinking of having and Adam & Eve vigil burnt as this represents the happiness we deserve. I don't know if we need "Love Me" because his actions prove he already does, but if anyone thinks it could be useful, please say so. I was tossing up between a "marriage blessing" and just a general "blessing" because I want our relationship blessed, but honestly I did so much forcing of the marriage issue in the physical plane, I don't want to place added pressure from a higher source too.
Other things that crossed my mind were "Stay With Me", "Reconciliation" and "Peaceful Home".
I'd also like to do some work at home, but not sure what to do, so any suggestions would be appreciated.