Just wanting to vent it off my chest...
Posted: Sun Jul 26, 2015 11:37 pm
Disclaimer: Please do not take any offence in what I say here in this post, I am just trying to vent off my frustrations and I do not mean harm to anybody.
Things have happened and she's gone for two days. Fresh wound indeed, because I know whatever went on in the argument leading to the departure was just an excuse. Just one night before, we were happily dining out and the very night on the way home, things happened.
I am so desperate to get some work done here but I have not received any concrete reply from the parties I have contacted. I am trying my best to calm down but the delay is really taking a toll on me. Right, somebody else could be facing a more drastic event in their lives. It's a Sunday in California so I can imagine.
I wish I could just get something started right away and let that energy or influence get to her. Fully aware of the kind of influence she is getting out there from individuals who don't even know me, every day away from me and every day with them multiplies the negativity. What can I really do? Our planned trip next month is down the drain suddenly overnight. Suddenly my care doesn't matter anymore. The temporary fun out there is more important than a lifetime of commitment.
Yes she wrote "I fall I rise I make Mistakes, I live, I learn". But has she really learn? What has she learnt from the only guy who makes sure he is there with her for every medical checkup? none of ex-es ever did that? What has she learnt from the only guy who makes sure he is home with her every night? Not leaving her to face the 4 walls all by herself? What has she learnt from the guy who spent so much time planning for trips just to make sure everything is comfortable for her?
What has she learnt from the only guy who wakes up in the middle of the night just to grab her a drink because she was coughing? What has she learnt from the guy whose first instinct was to massage her legs when she get cramps? Did she really learnt?
I need help. I admit I do. That's why I am here.
Things have happened and she's gone for two days. Fresh wound indeed, because I know whatever went on in the argument leading to the departure was just an excuse. Just one night before, we were happily dining out and the very night on the way home, things happened.
I am so desperate to get some work done here but I have not received any concrete reply from the parties I have contacted. I am trying my best to calm down but the delay is really taking a toll on me. Right, somebody else could be facing a more drastic event in their lives. It's a Sunday in California so I can imagine.
I wish I could just get something started right away and let that energy or influence get to her. Fully aware of the kind of influence she is getting out there from individuals who don't even know me, every day away from me and every day with them multiplies the negativity. What can I really do? Our planned trip next month is down the drain suddenly overnight. Suddenly my care doesn't matter anymore. The temporary fun out there is more important than a lifetime of commitment.
Yes she wrote "I fall I rise I make Mistakes, I live, I learn". But has she really learn? What has she learnt from the only guy who makes sure he is there with her for every medical checkup? none of ex-es ever did that? What has she learnt from the only guy who makes sure he is home with her every night? Not leaving her to face the 4 walls all by herself? What has she learnt from the guy who spent so much time planning for trips just to make sure everything is comfortable for her?
What has she learnt from the only guy who wakes up in the middle of the night just to grab her a drink because she was coughing? What has she learnt from the guy whose first instinct was to massage her legs when she get cramps? Did she really learnt?
I need help. I admit I do. That's why I am here.