Im a single mother of two beautiful, smart funny little girls, that are the light of my life. Im currently 10 weeks shy of graduating from culinary school with a associate degree in culinary arts. Which im very proud of by the way.
Here lately i have been fallen on hard time.
My father who was staying with me until I finished culinary school was arrested, and has received a year in jail mandatory sentence. leaving me with a mountain of debit, no job (at the time), and no help with my children. I do have two babydaddies, one in which pays child support, but is so evil he scares the devil himself, but pays child support weekly. and the other babydaddy that is a con-artist/woman-nasser, that WILL NOT, help me unless it benefits him.
Now to the problem at hand, i have currently started a job, but im still on probation, and I still run the chance of not getting the job. Even though here lately I have been really impressing the boss, to my understanding. I need this job, b/c I still have mountain of bills that have to be paid. I'm currently behind on my rent, and it is due by this Friday to avoid any further actions taken against me. Not to mention my lights are currently out and I running a cord from my Overly Righteous next door neighbors house (who is also one of my church members who go back telling the pastor/his wife things about me), b/c if I lose my home (that i have been living in for 3 yrs) i have no other place to go.
I do currenlty receive assiatance from the state (food stamps), but that barely enough to get by, and i was also informed by my case worker that if i get childcare from the state they are going to take a LARGE portion of my childsupport check each month.
My church is small and the members are not willing to help me, and the pastor this pass Sunday talked about me in the pullpit (meaning litterly calling me by name). Saying im not praying to God for him to deliver me from this situation and i need to STOP trying to do things all on my own. I need to start praying more to GOD, and coming to Bible Study more to hear the word of God. But Bible Study conflits with my scedule for school and my girls going to school. Also he said I might need to reconsider trying to finish my degree at school, b/c it might not be God's Will for me to go to school at this time.
Remember I stated before im only 10 WEEKS SHY of Graduating.
I do have family that have money but they really are not willing to help me. I have to do something, today will the lady at customer service told me I'm needed. I almost started crying on the phone with her, Cause God Knows I Really Needed to Hear That!!!!!!!!
Im not writing this post to sound like im depressed, or even suicidal cause im promise im not, i couldn't leave my little girls behind to defend for themselves. Im writing this for some help, PRAYER, and yes even some words of ENCOURAGEMENT!!!!!!!!! Know how often people say you never know who your friend are until you are in trouble. Well!! Best believe i have truly found out who my true friends are.
And im hoping someone will tell me something to change this situation around for me and fast. I just need something to break, and things turn in my favor.
Yes!!! i do believe in GOD, i have even attended school to learn more about him. But things right now are really getting Tough for me, to the point I feel like i cant Breath!!!
So if your reading this message, and you are willing to offer some advice, spiritual help, or even some words of ENCOURAGEMENT. Please Feel Free to Do So.
God Bless
PastryChefA.Morgan
