Help needed!
I was working with St. Expedite previously and had phenomenal success nearly every time I called upon him. However, at some point I ended up forgetting about him and packing my materials away (I believe we moved, but living in a small apartment there wasn't much room for an altar of any kind and his offering space was confined to the top of a shelf before). I haven't worked with him in months, maybe even a year or more, and I pulled out a candle the other day and tried to petition him. I've lost my St. Expedite medal that I wore on a necklace, and his picture that I had was I think lost or thrown out. The only thing I had left was part of a burned red candle I had last used to call him.
I lit it and petitioned him the other day, and have seen very little success. Slight movement, but almost to the point that it might have just happened on its own without any real interference. I tried to petition him again today with my request and when I lit the candle, the flame was burning very low. While I was finishing asking for my request and before I was explaining how I'd pay him, the candle went out. Like, instantaneously, just out. It felt like a very clear message to me that he was displeased, and would in fact not help me. I quickly relit the candle and apologized for my negligence, asking his forgiveness and what I need do to make this right, and the answer reverberating through my head as I sat there waiting was 'prove yourself'.
The flame, when relit, has now been constantly burning 2-2.5 inches tall--which is shocking since it would scarcely light before--and the candle has almost burnt completely out. I've literally never seen it eat away so fast! I was hoping someone here might be able to provide me some insight on how to appease an unhappy saint. I currently do not have an altar set up, or a permanent place for him. The candle is just kind of kept to the side on my fiance's desk. It poses a problem because we have little space, and a new rooommate who I doubt would be pleased to see me practicing or praying out in the open. I need solutions, so I turn to you.
This is a doubly useful post, in that I am also formally apologizing to this marvelous saint. I don't know how I could have been so inconsiderate as to ignore him after all the work he's done for me. Saint Expedite truly is great and powerful, he has helped me in many times of turmoil, and often done so with great speed and accuracy--providing exactly what I'd asked for. It was never my intent to anger or ignore him, and I humbly seek to repent for my actions.