First of all, Lupita at MISC is so helpful and so fantastic. She was an incredible gift to me earlier, and I believe that her help will help me achieve my goals. A little backstory:
I have an ex who had a crush on me for a year before we finally got together in magical circumstances (on the Nile River on the holiest day in the country we were in on a bed of roses beneath the stars was our first kiss). Like, this man was crying in my arms and kissing me to Beyonce songs and introducing me to his family. But, due to the intensity of our relationship and his fear and my impatience, we kind of f'd things up between the two of us, and have been fighting for the past few months.
Many readings confirmed that despite the arguing, my target is not only very much still in love but also my twin flame/soulmate. But his communication issues and his unwarranted anger at me and his casual dating around to distract himself from me wounded my pride enough that I thought to cast the Intranquility Spell and have a back-up candle lit for that purpose at MISC. Since casting it, I saw tons of signs of my target, from nearly impossible coincidences, to him contacting my friends to reminisce about me to them. But even with those signs, I myself was miserable and obsessive, and my target, though obviously missing me, started trying to shut me out to resist seeing me. Neither of us has communicated with each other, and all I wanted in the first place was openness and communication.
I realized in casting the spell that placing even more emotional stress on an individual who obviously has undealt with emotional issues of his own that prevented us from being together was counterintuitive to my goals, and I felt guilty, and wish I hadn't cast the IS at all, and that forgiving him was the only way to truly go forward even if we did get back together. I spent the night feeling so sad and so foolish, wondering how in my selfishness I thought setting bad spirits on someone I loved with demons all on his own was supposed to work in my favor. I spent last night from going to posting in the IS thread about seeing results to reflecting on my actions and crying and I asked God for help to make this situation right.
Crazy how right these forum moderators and experienced rootworkers can be
So when I called MISC today to check on my IS candle anyway, amazing Lupita searched and searched for my candle but couldn't find it. Since I had requested the candle some weeks ago and hadn't gotten my report, I was somewhat confused, and when she couldn't find it, I felt like it was a sign - and a gift - that my IS work apparently hadn't been backed up at all, and had probably gotten lost in how busy she said the staff has been lately
Relieved, I explained my situation to Lupita, who was totally sweet and smart. I explained to her the situation between myself and my target and she suggested I order a Reconciliation candle instead, which is now lit. I myself am now doing Blockbuster/RoadOpening work from home, and cleansing and Cut & Clear work in order to free me from any negative energy that causes me to forget my goals and to slip back into unhealthy patterns.
I am getting a reading soon to see if my own personal casting of the IS spell was actually effective and if the spirit elected to work with me anyway (and to deal with the consequences if so) but I feel so much better emotionally, and as if my cry for help had been answered.
So I not only got incredible customer service from MISC, but also, I think, the personal lesson that I would prefer to unblock situations and to heal them, if my abilities allow. I think it's way better for me than doing work that corresponds to my ugly and impulsive feelings, not my actual goals.
That is how I've always known him to be, and I want to boost his confidence so that he will feel comfortable making a move. I want to give him enough of a boost to come back, but not enough to have him running around with other women, so I was thinking of just using the same petition, which is for him to resume his monogamous relationship with me. I just wasn't sure if a vigil alone is enough, if I am not working with that line at home. My ex has been a tough nut to crack.
